feeling birthdayish

Today is my birthday but it's also the day my Mom is having back surgery, so I have other things on my mind and not feeling especially festive. This is not to say it's my Mom's fault or anything (well, obviously... just don't want to make her feel guilty); I think some birthdays, or maybe it's getting older, cause this day to feel like any other. Aside from my Mom I'm having trouble not thinking about the things that are pressing down on me... debts, no job. I am thankful for my friends and loved ones and hopefully tonight will be a good temporary band-aid that will fill me with some terrific distraction. And if anyone has some healing vibes to send my Mom that would be fantastic too.