The other day someone with the screen name “Independent Mom” submitted feedback in the Admission Area. The form doesn’t capture contact info and I have no other way to respond. I didn’t want to go without recognizing her feedback though — soul-baring, guilt ridden, melancholy yet still hopeful.
I don’t know if you are reading this, but I want to thank you for your candor. Being honest with yourself about what you feel are your shortcomings isn’t always easy, and sharing them with others is even harder. It sounds like you want to change, and that you want to move beyond this version of yourself your father shaped and that you came to believe as truth. Hold onto what you told me, “Our childhood choices are not indicative of what dictates the measurements of ones capabilities or future...i don’t believe this... I believe that I do want to live a good life and with a good plan i and anyone can overcome any challenge.”
Be kind to yourself. Believe in what you can do. Be ok with the times that you’re not doing. Keep looking for those sunsets.